30 March 2006

“Seems I can’t deny…some days just don’t feel right…but I think I feel, I feel much better…”



I believe very strongly that one will only fall ill when their spirit is weak…my spirit has been weak these last few days. I have been ill for over a week now and am only beginning to feel better. I’m not quite sure my spirit was strong enough for Freetown…I am being tested; given strength through my weakness I have no doubt, each moment presenting me with a challenge…from the constant heat of the day and the mosquitoes in the night (oohhh…they love my blood) to the lack of variety/nutrition in my diet and the overwhelming crowds of people ever present anywhere you go…it has been tough on me, spoiled western girl that I am.
However, one must know down to know up. My warrior self is being tested and I am feeling stronger and more determined moment by moment – my first month here has shown me beauty and potential, as well as conflict and struggle…to leave one of the richest countries in the world and land in one of the poorest is a journey on the flipside - of course my spirit became weak – you cannot prepare for a journey like this, you can only live it and that’s what I have chosen to do – LIVE IT.
This is a journey I asked to walk, each step…taking me further away from my original vision, each step…taking me closer to unimagined destinations…I do not know where this path leads and I choose not to ask knowing that as I walk each step I am leading myself into my future…a world of unlimited potentials! These moments of weakness my spirit feels…will become my strength.

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